Do you ever feel like stopping time and everything that is going on around you? Like your walking slowly whilst the whole world runs rings around you?
Today, that is just how I feel and I am not even sure why…
I feel a little lost, again, no real idea why.
I hate feeling so shitty, especially when I have no reason to be. I know the mixture of drugs I take on a daily basis are not helping, add to that the Copaxone, which causes the depression to deepen, makes for a pretty nasty cocktail.
Not really sure if it means, all I know is that one the inside, I feel like I am drowning and have no answers.
Hubby has been off this week, which of course called for the family to get a really vile cold, always fun!
Tomorrow is the girls birthday party, many children and people I haven’t seen for a while, also a family member that has not even bothered to come and meet Beboo yet, if you can afford to get overly drunk every weekend, you can afford to get on the train and come 20 odd miles.
Today was a day of cake making with the sister, without whom I would not be able to give the girls this party. She is amazing.
I want to write something witty and deep, but right now, I feel so shockingly odd, I just can’t quite find the words today, I think I will quit whilst I am ahead and call it day…
Feel free to await the post birthday party rant.