Dark, Down And Disorientated.
Midweek and it seems like my uplifted days are slowly coming to an end. I am starting to feel down again, not something I really wanted to feel again for a while.
After a rather strange week so far, I am tired and a little “meh”
Have not really got much interest for anything, not housework, shopping or playing with the girls.
I know, hideous.
Some might think its a wonderful idea to take a plethora of vitamins and go for a run, well to you I say, GET LOST! Before telling me how to live, see how it really feels before you throw some vitamin-exorcisey bollocks at me.
Right now I want to cry and feel sorry for myself, on the sofa, in my own home. Because I can.
Have been feeling average MS wise for a few weeks, which for someone like me, is good, I swear. Now I am starting to tire of doing things and all I want to do is watch TV and drink tea.
Not much has changed for these feelings to arise, apart from being busy and stressed, so I am starting to wonder if my Copaxone has anything to do with it, I am giving it the benefit of the doubt before I decide to stop.
Its only been a few weeks so I will soldier on, with the nasty lumps and vile stinging.
However I will admit that stopping treatments altogether has crossed my mind. Its something I have been secretly discussing with my nurse, I have asked all the questions and I have all the facts, so I will take my time and make an informed choice.
After all, its my body and my life and part of me is tired already of pumping myself full of drugs on a daily basis. Its depressing-er.
So lovely people, until tomorrow!